Yes, the festival is 32 days away!!
What have I learned this week about music festival planning in the context of Adult ADHD? That some things are as easy as pie for me and other things inordinately difficult. One VERY difficult task is planning ahead. I give myself a B this go round; however I often don't see what needs to be done or needs to have been done until the clarity that fear brings makes it so. This is NOT the way I'd like to live my life.
I've been thinking a lot about time sense, or rather possessing a misguided or altered sense of time. You can read more about it here. I've certainly struggled with it my whole life. Unless I have the adreneline of a close deadline or life catastrophe looming, I have a terrible time planning ahead. Without that adreneline surge based on real fear, it's very difficult to get myself moving on relatively mundane tasks.
My choice often feels like I must choose between sloth and fear based action. My point here is just to observe that this is a huge struggle for me and one with terrible consequences. There are ways to address this issue and I'm working on them.
More next week.
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