Money, ADHD and 2013

Money. 

For some it's as elusive as dark matter - it's out there, we know it's out there, all our instruments and mathematical models tell us it's out there but we just cannot get our hands onto any of it in any meaningful way.  For others it's as plentiful as oxygen.  I recently read that Tom Cruise is worth around a quarter of a billion dollars, pocket change to Bill Gates, Oprah and the Sultan of Brunei.   They couldn't escape extraordinary wealth even if they wanted to. 

I could wax on and on about the varying ways I see money's role in the world.  It's an endlessly fascinating subject.  To my chagrin, I haven't much talent in finance, but I am well versed in discussing the many complex feelings about money. 

Here's a fact in my own teeny tiny life: as an adult I have found earning a solid middle class living to be extremely difficult and astoundingly elusive.  I know, I know....the economy is bad, I come from a comfortable family that sent me to private schools.  Boo hoo for you. 

Well, it's still my life and no one is really going to watch out for it except for me and isn't that true for all of us?  Political correctness has no place when you're being honest about where you come from and the life expectations into which you were born. 

I genuinely don't know what 2013 holds for me.  I am woefully underemployed, without any feasible idea of how to work towards even the seemingly modest (yet, not) goal of financial stability.   I know I have many talents but they are like shards of broken glass that don't ever quite fit together.  That's a terribly tortured metaphor but you get my meaning.  

So I go into 2013 with one promise to you: that I will be open here on my blog with the trial and triumphs in my life.  May we all find moments of peace and vision amongst the choas.